Picking up shattered pieces of confidence...

Peanut Butter M&M's Sinfully Delicious.

2010-04-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

Few months ago while I was strolling around a shopping mall which I can't really remember which one since it have been few months ago, I was attracted by a big orange bag of m&m's. Out of curiosity, I pick it up and saw it wrote peanut butter flavor not the ordinary peanut flavor that we always see in the supermarket.

If I didn't remember wrongly, this flavor is only available for most western countries especially in the US because they created it and it is absolutely not available in Malaysia. I got lucky because it seems that this shop have imported them in for clearance. Immediately I grab a bag to the cashier and brought it back home. I tell you this will sure be the best m&m's you have ever eaten. The size is slightly bigger than the peanut's m&m, when you bite it into half you can see there is a chunk of peanut butter in the center. The flavor is really heavenly when the peanut butter mixes with the chocolate, the thickness and the aroma that lingers within your mouth is really incomparable to the normal m&m's that we normally eat. After eating this I can guaranty that you will not even have a look at the m&m's in our supermarkets. Heres the picture of this sinful flavor.

As you can see this is a medium bag but it couldn't even last my sis and I for one day so imagine how tasty it is. If you by any chance found this product anywhere remember to buy it to have a try. It won't disappoint you. I have also heard news that currently this flavor is also already available in Singapore. If I have the chance to go Singapore I will sure buy a box back here to share it with my friends.

Back from Land of the Cats

2010-02-23T05:58:00.000-08:00

To be honest, I am still in holiday mood. Maybe I am still missing the food and fun in kuching, or either this semester is just to relax due to it only has two subjects... Yea, I am shock too, didn't expect that this semester I am only require take up two subjects and everyday I'll only need to attend college for 2 hours~ That sounds fun right?

Anyways I still miss kuching and really disappointed in this trip because I didnt get to eat most of the good food in kuching. Dunno is all the hawkers in kuching is either too rich or just pure laziness. Normally most of the chinese will open thier shops on the 3rd day of Chinese New Year, even the latest is the 5th day. But guess what? This year even until the 5th day still 70% of the shops and stall are still closed! This is my annual food tasting session in kuching and they let me down...

By the way did I mention that kuching fireworks will replace the amount of stars in the sky during new year? Yea everyone are either too rich or just too into the festive mood, on new year eve when the clock just strike 12, fireworks are soaring up the sky non stop. I know its is beautiful to watch but do you know one blast like that cost you RM70.00? And that lasted for at least 30 minutes =.= But its fun anyways xD because we don't get to see that in KL at all..

Look at the size of this!

The fireworks... I know the ceiling is blocking... but its hard to catch the timing ok.. and its raining that time.. the best i could give.. the others are just too blur or the timing is not right.

And my cousins and I have also bake a cake for my grandpa since his birthday is on the 3rd day of CNY. PS: I know the middle pile look like a piece of shit, try my best already lol it was meant to be a rose xD

Char Kueh- This really rocks!!The best char kueh I ever eaten. For those who dunno what char kueh is, it is normally made from radish, minced and is taken to steam till firm and after that they fry it with eggs and other ingredient. But instead of radish, this stall allow you to choose from yam or pumpkin.

Sio Bee- Sio Bee is what we call siu mai in KL it is just in hakka (I think) since hakka is quite widely use there. This store serve good sio bee with soya milk... It is in town where there are quite alot of nice food stalls are.

Here comes the famous Laksa! The soup is just fabulous, and always remember to ask for an extra lime and belachan.

Another well known dish in kuching.. the Tomato mee.. but I think this stall is just ok.. taste abit like kids meal with full of nutrient..

The 3 Layer Teh C Bing!!!! OMG this is the best drink you can ever get in Kuching! The sweetness, the smoothness, the complexion.. everything is just perfect.. but too bad the cup in the picture is not as great as how I describe it because the good one i tasted last year is still closed for chinese new year =.= My greatest disappointment..

The front view of the house...

The classy front door..

I believe every one will goes for visting during this festival right? This house is just too pretty that I cant resist from posting it. It is the most beautfull house I've visited this year. Plus it's unique, the house number is number 7, and the land is also a shape of 7. Even thier car plate is 777! It also have a carp pond and a small fountain in it.

Ok and for the ending, this is something interesting i found while walking in the market...

You know what is it? look at the next picture of a closer look..

Sago Worm!! According to my uncle last time when they were small they cook these worms to eat... And he says it is very crunchy when deep fried, tasty when fried with black sauce.. I was hoping to try a few, but they say you need to buy alot only syok.. one or two is not nice so i kindly rejected, because I am scared that it is not tasty and I am force to finish everything..

Ok so thats all for now.. Just hope I will get good results as my results are coming out soon..

Holiday begins with an ending of a devestating exam

2010-01-27T22:59:00.000-08:00

It has been so long since my last update... Have been busy about assignments and exams.. Finally I have arrived at the end of this semester. And while waiting for the next semester to start, I have one whole month of holiday to spend!!

Now its the time for me to rush up my games and downloads, because ever since I started my assignment two, I don't have a chance to use the freakin internet for 1 whole month... Now it's time for streamyx to pay me back my lost time!!

Oh yea, I had also just gotten a psp recently... I guess I didnt make a wrong choice buying one, it has many functions and different different type of mods and games that I favor. Currently I am rushing Monster Hunter 2G which have excellent graphics and game play.

And Chinese new year is coming, so are the ang pow's!! Can't wait to receive ang pow's, since I am so damn broke now due to the psp. To bad for those who are already married.. xD

I will be heading to kuching in around 2 weeks, so will update you guys more about kuching and the FOOD!! Happy Chinese New Year in advance..

Hectic November~

2009-11-20T09:15:00.000-08:00

Last 2 week was really a very hectic week for me, where there are assignments to rush, reports to write, events to attend, and work to finish. On the 7th of November, my friends and I started on our programing assignment which was just given around the 5th of November. At first it doesn't look hard at all, so we just take our own sweet time. But until there is still 5 more days to the dead line(14 Nov), we have all just notice that all of us are in deep shit, really deep shit.

Everyday with less that 4 hours sleep, irregular meals, after classes straight rush back home lock myself at home, ignoring everything and rush the bloody program. We even came to an extend that we need to find out what time our lecturer is leaving the college and rush to hand it in to her before she gets into her car. At the very last day to hand it in, I miraculously manage to finish the program, but I still haven touch the report yet. So our whole class skipped Ms Merina class(so sorry Ms Merina xD) to do the remaining report or program. At 3.30pm, we were still in the process of printing the reports, so we have send Daniel and Eric to stop Ms Chang from going back, but we found out the she has already left the office =.=!! So we just take our time and finish the assignment and just dump the whole stack of reports on her desk with a note saying that we left it there at 3.30 sharp which is the actual time she is suppose to go back.

After handing in the assignment, its like the weight of the whole world has been lifted of my shoulders. After reaching home, I only just realize that I have not eaten or drink anything for 24 hours and I feel like I am in the north pole. After popping the thermometer into my mouth it came out 39°C! Besides that, I also had gastric as a bonus. Although after resting a few days my fever had subside, but even till now I am still having gastric. How great is that.

Oh ya I have also watch 2012 which is greatly awaited by almost everyone, including me which even when I am having fever, I force myself to go and watch. Maybe I have expected to much from it, to me its quite funny but the ending is not satisfactory for a 2 hours 40 minutes movie. Maybe a twist or some other thing would make the movie a better one.

Yesterday, Brandon, Cherise and me went with teacher(cincin) to celebrate her birthday earlier in greenbox. And I guess this trip is soo worthwhile, get to see the other side of cincin *evil grin =) btw I also found out besides teaching she also have the talent of singing as well.. too bad I forgot to take my camera, so here are just a few photos that is taken by using her phone.

Her cute little birthday cake~

Brandon tried to push the candle into the cake but it was too shallow and there is still 1/3 of it surfacing on the cake xD

Group photo from left : Brandon, Me, Cincin, Cherise.

Ok I think thats all for now... and tomorrow I am heading for Malacca to cari makan... so will update you guys when I get back.. ciao..

Crack in the Hourglass

2009-11-02T04:19:00.000-08:00

I have been busy this few days and gonna be more busier later. With more events,work, presentations and assignments come flying at me and christmas is just round the corner, time is always insufficient for me. Ok I gonna go briefly on what I have done last few days.

I have finally quited my job as a japanese tour guide since it keep clashing with my timetable.

My last tour

Finally after so long, I went with Kyian to try the "Rumored Gigantic Portion" German Restaurant. And the rumor proves to be true, look at the pictures below.

The German Deli Imbiss(Imbiss is snack in German)

To them maybe it's just snack but to us it's so bloody big!

The Bavarian Root beer - Look at the size of that mug! If not mistaken last time A&W root bear glass is only half the size of this. But the taste is just normal root beer. Rating 5/10

The 500 Megaton - UFO shape burger.. the patty which is 500g and 1 inch thick and it is just too big for the bun. Got shock when I see it, more like a steak than a burger. The patty was very juicy and not tough, so overall its nice and fun to look at. Rating8/10

A few days later, don't know where this cake come from, just found it in the refrigerator .

Durian Mousse Cake - This is my first time tasting a durian cake. The texture is quite different from the regular mousse cake that we often eat, its creamy and light. Rating 7/10

There's still Halloween!! Last saturday my college mates organized a haloween party at TGI Fridays(That's what they told me - Halloween Party), but after dinner I only found out its a belated birthday party for me and Vasan which is just 1 day different.

Group photo at the table and at the bar.

The TGIF Crew force us stand on the chair, give a speech with a chili sauce bottle, sing twinkle twinkle little star, blow a candle that is half a meter away and stomp the ground while singing thier TGIF version of happy birthday which is super scary because the whole stage is vibrating.

Last group photo of our gang and the TGIF Crew.

What I had:

Boneless Wings - The chicken was not bad. The meat was tender and tasty, but I like it with the cheese dip which is suppose to go with the celery. The celery was so old and hard so I didnt finish my veggies xD Rating 7/10

Tuscan Chicken Melt - Actually I expected something more from this, its just thick slice bread toast with mozzarella cheese and chicken inside. I can't taste any sauce from it, or maybe it comes this way? Rating 7/10

The next day after that party I went for the British Bazaar in Nikko Hotel to help my parents. I always love these bazaars because there are always good food!!

Look at these wonderful cupcakes its too pretty to eat.

The goodies that I brought home.

From 8 o clock clockwise

Cherry Pie, Vanilla Fudge, Muffin, Chocolate Fudge, Chocolate chips cookie which taste superb.

So I guess thats all for now, will update more later when I have time. And btw Happy birthday Ham Lin!!

Family Trip ~ Back To Nature

2009-10-19T06:08:00.000-07:00

I have just notice the place I mention in my last post is actually spelled Sitiawan, but it is pronounce as Setiawan. The main objective of this this trip is to find nice food and taste them all!! I guess I will start to introduce nice food to you guys as well in this blog with a rating so you guys can go try it yourselves.

Ok before the food, let me show you some of the greens and blues first, there are really a few scenery on the way there for city folks like us who are always in the concrete jungle.

Where can you see these goats and cows beside the road in KL?

Scenery on the way~

Italy got Leaning tower of Pisa, Malaysia got Leaning tower of Teluk Intan!

This is Teluk Batik.

Views from the apartment I've stayed.

Paddy field. Nows its all still green, I heard that if all of it is brown it will be a lot prettier.

Do you know what is this? Its not an incomplete building, its a swallow house where people cultivate swallow for bird's nest.

Ok now the food:

My first drink on the trip - Coffee iced blended. Had this in Sg Besar near the MCA Office. It was just ok nothing special. Rating 5/10.

Had this in Kg Cina:

Steamed fresh clamp - This dish is really nice, the clamps are so fresh that all they need to add is just a little rice wine, the clamps are big and the soup is just nice. Rating 9/10.

Chinese red wine noodle - This is something special that I think they only have it there. The noodle they use are call "mee sua" which are commonly available there. Its not the normal "mee sua" that we can eat it KL, its texture really goes well with the soup. Rating 8/10.

Deep fried fish. Forgot what is the name of the fish already xD I had this before quite a few times in fact, so it's nothing really special. Maybe this restaurant is not good in frying stuffs, somehow I feel this dish is somewhat incomplete. Rating 6/10.

Toddy. See the glass beside the coconut? Thats toddy. Its something like coconut wine aka Bacardi Coconut (name by me xD) which is made of coconut water. You may request for a fresh toddy which has milder taste and a smoother texture or an old one which is more thick and stronger. Some even mix it with Guinness Stout. Personally I prefer the thicker one. Rating 8/10.

What I had for breakfast:

Mee Rebus : I feel this is also just ok... The only difference from the KL mee rebus is they add quite alot of prawn paste in it so it taste more sweet. Rating 5/10.

Nasi Lemak Ikan: This is really something special which is only available there. Instead of peanut and egg, they use fish for thier nasi lemak. Most of the restaurants or stalls have this in the morning. Find packets without a marker on it for fish nasi lemak or find those with a line on it for ikan bilis nasi lemak. Rating 8/10.

Actually there are still a few dish, but before I manage to take a picture of it my family have already dig in xD I also need to especially go buy one packet of the Nasi Lemak Ikan back home to take a picture of it because the one in the restaurant have all entered my family stomach.

Lunch - This stall is near the market which serves loh mee that is different from the one in KL.

ABC - Shaved ice with gula melaka, it was common that you can find it anywhere. Rating 5/10.

Loh Mee - The taste was just only passable, actually it really disappointed me. The soup was not as nice as I expected it to be, but the noodles are really nice to chew. Rating 6/10.

Egg Swallow(蛋燕) - This is what the locals call this bowl of noodle, it may look like an ordinary kuey tiao soup, but the noodle is not kuey tiao, its texture is very springy and nice to chew. Its something like "mien kan(面根)" if anyone have ever eaten that before should know hows the texture is. Rating 7/10.

Late Lunch before going back, its in Sg Besar also the restaurant is call 海群 .

Gong Pia - These pastry is quite famous in Sitiawan, it comes in two flavors which are char siew and onion. Its is quite chewy(too chewy for me like eating chewing gum) and tough, maybe because I got this in the market not from the famous shop because the shop was close for Deepavali. Rating 6/10.

Steamed fresh clamp - Another fresh clamp dish, to me this dish is not as nice as the last one. They have add too much rice wine which has cover the taste of the clamps. Rating 6/10.

Steamed fresh prawns - This dish is very nice!! The prawns are so fresh and sweet, the texture of the meat is so smooth and bouncy. Without adding much seasonings, they manage to bring out the taste by just adding a little soy sauce and eggs to steam. This is one of the dish i recommend. Rating 10/10.

Fried sotong - This dish is also not bad, the oil taste fresh when u start chewing the squid. Not like some restaurant where you can feel that the oil has a little smell. Rating 9/10.

Ok so thats all for now. Will update more about food if I go to any trip in the future. And tomorrow will also be my final day as a tour guide so wish me luck. Final picture of Sitiawan - Picture with the fierce goose that will try to peck me when I get close. cheers~ xD

Japanese tour ~ One step closer to Japan

2009-10-15T10:12:00.000-07:00

Last few months I registered for a japanese tour guide vacancy just because I thought it would be an interesting experience. But as the day is getting closer, I felt more and more nervous. One day before the tour, I cant sleep the whole night, stayed up to look for common tour guide phrase and revise my japanese as I haven't touch it for half a year. Thinking about communicating with them really scares me because I have almost forgotten everything that I have learned. Finally the time of death have arrived, when they slowly step down the bus greeting and giving a slight bow. I really had difficulties communicating at first, since I didn't know what topic or what to say. But after the brief self introduction of myself, my handphone rang(I forgotten to put it into silent mode) playing my ringtone Flavor of Life which is sung by Utada Hikaru and to my surprise most of them are Utada Hikaru fans. That ring tone really help to break the ice, all kinds of topic started coming into the conversation(especially about japanese songs) , they became more like friends that my clients xD They were not as scary as I expect it to be, I guess japanese are just friendly and well mannered in their nature. They also keep asking me to bring them to eat the "FAMOUS NASI GORENG" of Malaysia, it seems that our nasi goreng is quite famous in Japan, some of them even wanted to take away some to bring back to Japan xD ok enough of the words.. now pictures..

Strawberry ice blended for lunch and nasi goreng tomyam, but to me its not very nice. The mamaks outside are so much better than this shop, but in the rule book I can't bring them out to eat hawkers food.

The girls of my group and the boys which I help to take care for a little while.

Forgotten about the group pics and intro. From left Yui, Hiroka, Maririn, me, Maki, Yuka, Shiho, Kanako.This picture is in Dataran Merdeka.

Group picture in Petronas Twin Tower, my group and Ry Ling's group. Thanks to Ry Ling to go help me go queue for the twin tower tickets in the morning, which I can't go because I have class in the morning.

How the bridge look like for those who have haven't been up there and the view of KL. Its on the 41 and 42 floor of the twin towers, but visitors are only allow on the 41 floor. Its also cold up there really like in Genting.

Its feel really happy to give something. I guess kindness really do pay off. This lovely couple from Australia was so disappointed when they found out that the tickets have finished for that day as that is their last day in Malaysia. So I offered them the two extra tickets that we have, so this was how this picture was taken.

My souvenirs sticker from the twin tower and the snacks they gave me because I replied saying I love Japanese food xD

This tour really was fun and turns out to be a good one, in addition I have made some friends as a bonus. So overall it was really a great experience for me to get to know more about japan, japanese and their culture. And this also helps me to get one step closer to one of my dream which is to go japan some day.

Will post the remaining photos in Facebook. Oh ya I am also going to setiawan on Deepavali, will blog about it when i come back, and to all my indian friends out there Happy Deepavali..

The start of a busy week ~ Birthday Marathon

2009-10-14T05:59:00.000-07:00

WARNING THIS IS GOING TO BE A VERY LONG POST!

October is always the busiest month for me. Birthdays, events, school, work, and etc will just pile up and happen at least every 3 days. For example, I had a birthday marathon last week, which started on friday and ended on sunday.

Day 1: Me and my friends went to KLCC to celebrate Vasan birthday and watch The Perfect Getaway. The movie was a little too short for me, so many scenes have been cut, it was suppose to be a 1 hour 40 minutes show, but it ended up 1 hour 30 minutes. After the movie Vasan went home, so our group end up eating subway for dinner.

What I had for dinner: Turkey ham Parmesan Sandwich, with extra of everything!

didn't snap much because using my phone, forgotten to bring my camera. from left steve, brandon, daniel.

Day 2: Now its my turn for the birthday marathon. I was busy whole afternoon preparing dinner for my friends that are coming over. Started cooking around 6, and finally done at 8.

Family and friends.

The food...

After dinner we when to poppy to celebrate and I met some people there. But too bad Brandon feels sick so he left earlier(maybe because of the food I cooked? xD) And the most interesting part is 'someone' got drunk...

My favorite drink~

Before drinking...

After drinking a few raw shots force by Alex.. Results=Tomato red face

Slowly recovering.. group photo.. from clockwise 9 start brandon, woo, win, oscar, alex, me, yip.

People I've met, they share table with us. If not mistaken the guy's name is Lim.

The results after all of it ended:

second one to go down is Alex.. Brandon was the first but he deleted the photo of him vomiting..

Lim dancing with the bucket of ice. xD

The results of controlled drinking. Me, Yip and Woo got back home happily, while *cough* 'someone' needed us to carry him back.

Day 3: Its Winnie and Justin birthday. So Andy, Kah Hui, and Ken had organized a 3in1 birthday party in Red Box for justin, winnie and me(belated). But at the end, Justin didn't turn up, so Brandon also didn't come, Nikko also not free. So in total only 7 of us turn up which are Andy, KH, Ken, Winnie, Thomas, Marcus, and me.

From left Me, KH, and Andy.

At redbox they have some promotion for free drinks or stuffs. All we need to do is to throw the dice and if the skeleton is facing up then we can get the drinks, but I guess we are all unlucky(birthday also so bad luck, or maybe they have rigged the dice)that day. Out of 9 tries, we didn't even get one =.=!

Group photo(clockwise starting from 7):Andy, Ken, KH, Winnie, me, Marcus.

Happy Birthday!! Thomas brought in a cake..

Lastly, KH Blooper.. gone crazy after everything has ended.. xD

In my next post I am gonna post more pictures about my japanese tour(maybe tomorrow), because this post really too long already..

Tiramisu - A taste of heaven.

2009-10-08T08:31:00.000-07:00

To me, Tiramisu is a simple yet sophisticated dessert. It can express or make you feel differently when eaten under different circumstances. You can feel the warmth and care when eating with your family and friends, feel love and romance when eating with your soul mate, and will feel grateful and passionate about life when you are eating it alone. Moreover Tiramisu for Valentine is simply romantic, it will also create a jolly feeling for Christmas and happy feeling on any special events. Since it is such a wonderful dessert/cake, and furthermore my birthday is just around the corner, so I here will share the steps to make the original Italian Tiramisu for you guys to make for your love ones.

the ingredients, you need :

4 eggs, 3 big spoon of sugar(I use icing sugar because its finer),

500g cheese (Mascarpone cheese or mix with Philadelphia cheese

like what I did because Mascarpone is expensive),

2 mug of warm bitter espresso (add a bit of sugar it in),

1 big pack of Savadori/Ladyfinger (You can get this in Cold Storage), bitter cocoa powder.

Optional: brandy, rum or coffee liqueur ( It will add an extra kick, add to your taste.).

First separate the whites and yolk like the picture above. And then whisk the yolk with the sugar, add the sugar bit by bit so it wont form lumps (you may also use an electric mixer) Don't panic if your volume is much lesser than mine because I am making extra, the normal volume is not enough for my family xD

After beating the yolks till pale yellow, put the cream cheese into a big mixing bow and mix it till it become smooth and creamy. Then slowly pour in the yolk mixture bit by bit again and fold it in. ( forgot to mention your yolk mixture should be creamy and thick like mine in the picture)

It should become a creamy mixture like this.

Next whisk the whites till stiff peak and the volume will increase to maybe double or even triple of it original volume. Make sure to whisk the bottom also when it start to expand. My method of checking whether it is stiff peak or not is to SLOWLY turn the mixing bow upside down. If it is like mine which will not pour out even I turn it upside down, then you have succeeded. If its pourable, continue to whisk it. After it reaches stiff peak, slowly fold it into the cheese mixture. Do not stir it! We must try to keep as much air as possible in the whites.(I prefer to mix it manually because it is easier to control, you may use an electric mixer, but be sure not to over beat the whites.)

After the coffee have cooled down, add in the booze! It is an optional step, I prefer it with coffee liquor but I don't have it so I am force to use up the Gordon Bleu I had. Just don't add too much if you are making it for a kid, if not his/her face will go tomato red in no time. Then just quickly dip the Savadori into the coffee and arrange it into the container.

Then spread the cheese mixture evenly on top of the Savadori (like the picture), and continue to place another layer of Savadori as the steps above. Repeat until the container is full. Chill for at least 4 hours, or if possible overnight, to let the flavor to settle.

The finish touch, sift in the cocoa powder over it before consuming.

The price i have to pay each time I cook or bake, "rich man's hand" will crack after touching oil.

So if you have ever taste my cooking, you should feel honored because I am cooking for you xD

Ok so i guess thats all for now, and if you guys have any question just shout at my shout box. Btw Happy birthday Vasan!!

End of Sem Break..

2009-10-04T07:23:00.000-07:00

In this semester break, a lot have happen. Some are sweet some are bitter, but sure as hell it is a memorable one. Especially the memories my friends and I made in Redang, problems that my bro's encounter and hardships that force people to grow up. The new sem is starting tomorrow, and yet I am still in holiday mood, bags still throw aside covered in dust, don't even know where my pencil case is xD . I bet a lot people is still in the same state as I am, so people faster go find your bags and pencil case, start to get ready for the new semester and keep your holiday mood for the next sem break and let it burst out again. It will also be a busy week when tomorrow comes, a lot events are coming up like school activities, work, and a strings of birthdays(if every of them organize a birthday party, I will have to attend birthday parties for 7 days in a row!! besides from the 7 days parties, at least every 3 days there will be another one also).. Thinking back about the first semester really makes me feel happy as it is a step forward in life and i have really enjoyed it, so lets just hope the second sem will be as good as the first. Cheers~~

Picking up shattered pieces of confidence...

2009-10-01T03:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a special day for me, I've met an old friend of mine that have left Malaysia 5 years ago. She was the most unexpected person on earth that I would bumped into in my life. Somehow I manage to bumped into her in Pavilion, at first she called my name with a tone of suspiciousness. I was totally shock when i turn back and look to realize it was her standing right in front of me. She was someone special in my life which gave me 2 weeks of happiness and 5 years of sorrow. Exactly after 14days, she suddenly vanish from my life. I only get to know that her family have migrated to a foreign country from her best friend. I always thought that all these only will happen in dramas, but it really happened to me. Haven't recover from the impact I took, she apologized and explained what actually happen years ago. At that time I was rushing to an appointment with a friend, and I didn't know what to say since I was caught off guard, I didn't even ask for her email or other ways to contact her. All I can remember is saying two words to her which is "Hello" and "Bye". I did some thinking, and finally feel how dumb I was for not letting it go for the pass 5 years, setting borders with friendships and relationship, trying not to get too close with anyone, locking myself in my own world where I won't get hurt. Over that 5 years I have been silent, dare not to voice out opinions, feelings and kept everything to myself. After yesterday encounter, I have finally look through most of the things and started to let this weight on my shoulders go. She is the one who indirectly motivate me to start this blog, and I am really grateful for this encounter. I would also like to take this opportunity to apologize to anyone of you who are reading this post if I have offended or done something mean to you guys before. I believe everything will change starting from this post, as this blog will be recording my remaining journey to pick up my shattered pieces of confidence.

Ps: If you are reading this from Canada, please mail me, i really hope we still can be friends. =)